sad + mad = complicated :/

Hey dear blogger! i miss writing here so much! the purpose im writing here is because i feel hurt much. and i feel sad. the person that i love. yess, he's having a serious disease. :( how could him kept this as secret from me? i guess im not important to know all bout him yea. but nevermind. as long as i already knew the truth story, it is more than enough. :) but, i feel guilty towards his brother. know why? i feel guilty bcuz i can't tell him the truth. :/ sorry dik, i can't tell you as i promise to someone not to tell you about this. i feel useless bcuz i can't do anything. hmm. what should i do right now? i don't know what should i do now. i guess what can i do now is just pray and pray to Allah. and have to be more patience. yeah. i have too. 

And yesterday, i don't know why i feel like this. He on his fb. but he didn't chat with me. and didn't start the conversation first. i wonder why he's like that yesterday. because usually, he will start first and not me. oh, i feel so much hurt like seriously. i guess, this tells me that i can't forget him yet yea. thats why i feel like thiss. :| i don't know who's fault here. my intention is to start first, but unfortunately, i gotta work to did after that. so yeah. and after finish my work, i thought that he still on. but it was wrong. he's off. and yeah. Ahh. i don't care bout him anymore. i feel tired okay. and now i feel like he doesn't love me anymore. what a sad life. :( thats it! i don't wanna know bout him anymore. we'll see wht will happen. if he miss me, he will text me or chat with me. and if not, i have to accept that he don't love me anymore.

thanks for reading :) will update my next story later.

sad news :(

 hey dear blogger! i miss writing here. :) and im now to write something bout my abangg.
Act, i feel a bit sad knowing from his lil bro that he maybe suffering from a heart disease. He found a letter from a hospital saying that he will be operate soon. but abang doesn't fill the form. hmm. i hope that all this is not true. i hope he is okay and not having any serious disease. please ya allah, i really really love him. i don't know what will happen if he's gone. because he is my strength. and he is the one and only foster brother that i have. if he's gone, how am i going to survive? i love him like i love my own family. serious. :)) i think wht can i do now is just pray and prayy to god. hoping that he will be finee. ya allah, please jauhkan dia dari segala penyakit. kerana aku sangat sayang dia. 


i've asked him already whether is he having any disease or not but he seems like don't wanna answer. that make me feel even worried. and lastly, he just said sorry to me. and when i asked sorry for what? he just said ntg. just sorry. hmm. i hope he's okayy. aku akan terus berdoa utk dia. ya allah, kuatkan aku untuk hadapi semua ni ya allah. Amin.