Minggu Destini Siswa :D

this post is about our MDS week :) well it such a great for me. hehe at the first it is not because all the abang2 and kakak2 PM was so fierce and i am scared of them and what annoyed me when they said 'pantas siswi pantas' erghh hate that! hahah but guess what? i miss hearing them say that you know. haha weird me kan? haha well i am just me. ihiks :D 

okeyy at the first, i really2 don't like all the abg2 and kakak2 PM. haha because they are like bullying us. sighs -.- but guess wht? lama2 aku sayang diaorng oh. hehe and ada la satu abg PM nih aku minat dia sangat2. he is so damn hndsome okayyy. mihmihmih :D aku like jatuh cinta dgn dia. haha. lol abaikan okay. haha nak tahu nama dia tak?or tk perlu eh? tk payah kot. nnti jadi controversi la pulak kan? biarlah rahsia benda itu. hehe :p

and lets have a break. see me taking pictures with abang2 and kakak2 PM yang gorgeous and handsome niii :'D 

abang hadi looks cute right? hehehe :D abang hussein serious sangatt2 smartt. he looks like harry potter okayy. hihi :D

i love this picture the most! hehehe :D he is handsome right? siapa dapat dia wahh sangat beruntung ohh. :)

waniey, kak rabiatul kamsina. she is cute kan kan? heee. me suka tgk muka dia :D

kak umairah nama dia. dia sangat garang. saya tkut dgn dia. :/ haha

saya tahu pic ni sgt awesome. nampak mcm couple. tapii aippp dia cuma abang PM je okeyy. hehe

                                 hajar, ikaa and waniey :D

thats all i guess. wait for my next post ya? :) muehehe byeee peeps. and assalamualaikum :D

UiTM Kedah life :)

assalamualaikum and good evening dear people :) for how long yea i didn't write here? hmm i don't know. but what i know that i miss writing here actually.
okay, let use some bahasa. and im not gonna use full english as i am not good in english actually. im in UiTM Kedah now actually. feelin much boring and thats why i have the time to write here. esok2 ni if dah ada assignment, i don't think i can have this free time. hhaha 
so, so far i stay here my life is well doing great. me have a great roomate. 3 great roomies. hehe :D it just sorang tu jaa la. hurmm nvm la. aku tk nak gaduh dgn dia. thats all :)

so let see my photos with le roomates :) 

me with siti hajar asyikin :D

this is in the taxi :D heading to c mart i guess. hehehe

us again and againnn :DD



ahh i think thats all. tak perlu tunjuk banyak2 kot. heheh :p 

btw duduk sini hurmm aku dh tk berapa nak fikir pasal ex aku lagi. well tk perlu kita fikir org yg tk fikir pasal kita kan? useless kan? btl tk? apa yang aku boleh buat now is mendoakan dia supaya dia bahagia dgn gf baru dia sekarang. and aku berdoa supaya dia tk sakitkan hati gf baru dia mcm mana yg dia buat kat aku :') tu je yg aku boleh buat sekarang..
and i am promise, masuk sini aku dah tk nak fikir lagi pasal ex aku. dan itu adalah janji aku. dan aku harus tepati janji aku yg satu tu. okeyy tutup story pasal tuh :') lagi pun life kat sini awesome. boleh dikatakan awesome la :)

oh ya. the next post is about MDS :D just wait and see ya? :) byee peeps

10.11.12

hai there peeps! :) 10.11.12 was a nice date right? but not for me i guess. tarikh cantik tu adalah tarikh terakhir aku berada di Kolej Matrikulasi Perlis (KMP) last day aku kt kmp. sedih nak tinggalkan kawan2 sebenarnya tapi aku terpaksa. aku dapat tawaran ke UiTM course Pengurusan Maklumat. course yang aku nak sangat2. bukan tu je. aku dh tk boleh nak belajar lagi kt kmp tu. dkt kmp aku rasa aku sangat lifeless. i really need a new environment. ini jalan yang aku pilih. aku mmg sayang roomates aku. aku sayang korang. serious. :') classmates aku. pun aku sayang wehh. roomate aku yang paling aku rapat and aku sayang is Nur Farahin Allia bt Abd Nasir. Liaaa, kau sangat comel! even kau jenis garang tapi aku tetap sayang kau wehh. kau sweet sangat. kau org ke-2 yg aku kenal kt kmp. aku mesti rindu kau. me love youu :*  to zatie, kau banyak tlg aku weh. even kau suka marah2 aku tapi aku tauu kau just main2 jee. aku tau tuu. ihiks. aku pun sayang kau jugak. tk lupa jugak dkt wanie, ain.. korang pun aku sayang :) aku akan ingat semua kenangan kt dlm bilik 206. kenangan tu akan aku simpan kt dlm hati.

to classmate aku pulakk. org yg paling aku rapat is Zahira Syazwani bt Shamsudin :) zeraaa, kau org yg paling aku rpt dlm kelas. ketawa menangis semua dgn kau. semua masalah aku, aku cerita dgn kau je kot. kau je yg faham aku. yang lain tak. hurmm even kau suka buli aku. perli2 aku. i don't really mind bout it. :) mesti aku rindu nak kena buli dgn kau oh. ihiksss :D to classmate aku yg lainn. yeahh even x rpt sgt, but aku still sayang korang :') 

jom tengok gambar2 aku dgn roomates aku :D 

                                           so from the left is me, aen, allia and wanie :)

                                                          me and ain abu kassim :D

                                                                    wehuuuuu~ :D

now with my classmates :D 

                                                             me, anis and zahira :)

                                                     me, zahira, faqhera and zata :D

koranggg, ingat tau aku sayang sangat kt korang. tk kisah lah roomate aku or classmate aku. aku sayangggg korangg. heee byoieee :D 

and tau tak kenapa aku pilih utk masuk UiTM? sebab utama aku masuk Uitm is aku rasa aku mmg dh tk boleh nak bawak matrik tuu. mmg dh tk boleh. PSPM pun aku buat sangat teruk. aku buat main2. and the second reason is.. if aku terus duduk situ, aku akan terbayang benda yg dh lepas yg tk sepatutnya aku kenang. that is, aku asyik teringat ex aku. and bila teringat, mesti nak menangis, haihh. ya allah, kuatkan hati hambamu ni ya allah. maybe aku masuk Uitm takkan igt dh benda2 yg dh lepas yg menyakitkan tuu. yeah i needa a new environment. and aku spt U dkt sungai petani. i hope that my life is better kt sana that kt matrik. insyaAllah. :)
thats all from me. thnk you :D

heartache :')

haii dear blogger. ;) for so long time i didn't write here. me miss you so much! :) lets just write something about my life. my life. isn't that happy. it full of sadness as i become a single lady. ihiks. i am actually had been clash with 'him'. it is already 1 month and 28 days we make our own way :') we had been together for 6 months. we start couple on 15.03.2012 and we clash on 15.09.2012. the date of 15th, at the first was a nice date for me but i hate that date as we are already clash.

On the month of November,
banyak kenangan yang saya nak tulis. let me write in bahasa melayu. hikhikhik :) kalau masuk 15hb ni, maksudnya 2 bulan dah kita putus. saya ingat semua tu awak, tarikh masa kita first couple. kita putus. i do remember all that. kenangan manis, pahit semua saya simpan dlm hati saya. even sekarang awak dh ada org lain, saya faham. mungkin saya bukan yg terbaik utk awak. mungkin awak lebih bahagia tanpa saya. if you're happy without me, then i'll let you go. even that hurt me a lot. i've no choice. i had too. tapi cepatnya awak dpt pengganti? saya smpai sekarang still x dapat lupakan awak. sayang terhadap awak tu still ada lagi. awak 'first love' saya kan? bukan senang saya nak lupa mcm tu jee. tkpe la awak saya redha dan ikhlas kalau mmg awak bukan untuk saya :')

lately nii, awak selalu muncul dalam ingatan saya. saya tak pernah salahkan awak knp semua jadi mcm ni. mungkin mmg salah saya. atau mungkin kita mmg tak ada jodoh. cuma saya terasa hati dgn apa yang awak dah buat kat saya. saya terasa bila awak kasar dgn saya. saya terasa sangat2 awak. sampai sekarang rasa sakit tu still ada lagi. saya try benci awak but i can't. i can't hate you even i force myself too. tidak apa2 lahh. semua kenangan pahit manis kita selama 6 bulan akn saya kenang sampai bila2 awak. saya takkan lupa semua tu :') 
ada satu hari tu saya bukak profile twitter awak, saya terkejut tgk awak dah unfollow saya kt twitter. saya sedih sgt awak time tu.. tapi saya faham. takkan saya nak halang awak utk unfollow saya? padahal saya dh lama dh unfollow awak. saya sedihh.. saya menangis. kt bbm pun awak dh delete saya. and lastly saya dpt tahu yang awak dah ada org lain. ya allah, hanya allah sahaja yang tahu betapa sakitnya hati saya nii. sangat2 sakittt. its okay. kalau itu yg boleh buat awak bahagia, saya pun turut bahagia. saya doakan awak happy dgn gf bru awak. 

susah utk aku cari penggantimu. aku susah dah nak percaya lelaki. sangat susah. susah utk terima lelaki dlm hidup aku. it takes time for me to get a guy trust. it takes time. my heart is still bleeding. 

                          

thats alll from. wait for anothe post from me. hihihi :D

26042012

Hey there dear blogger! :) saya rinduu kamuu sangatt2! okay, whats with 26 April eh? hmm, itu tarikh b'day saya :D yeah, this year was so damn special la. serious. even tak ada hadiah. no celebrate with friends but saya dpt banyak wish from people. itu pun sudah cukup :D dekat facebook, dkt twitter. bbm. whatsapp and message! ya allah, thanks for all that :) i was so damn happy la that day. seriously. :D but text yang paling saya sukaa is text from my first loove. but now dh jadi my ex. and kita mmg dh tk ada apa2. he gave me a damn long wish. and i was so damn happy lahh. okayy, thank you ye dear AQF :D thanks sbb buat karangan panjang lebar utk wish saya. hahaha xD and wish dari abg saya pun amat bermakna utk saya. thanks abang! hehe. andd time b'day saya tu, i otp dgn AQF sgt lama oh. haha. dari pukul 12.40a.m. untill 5a.m. lebih. ya allah, how happy i am that time. only allah know. haha. dapt free call kan? call saje laa. wakakaka xD and before habis that free call pun i call him. but we end up bergaduh. but nvm la. its okay. saya terima dgn ikhlas semua ini :) and i think itu sajee kot. will write again later :D

tired!

hey blogger! today i write again here. yeahh. also about my bf. aku tk tau kenapa. kita asal gaduh sajaa. dh baik gaduh, dh baik gaduh. hari tu gaduh pasal abang. and now sbb dia terasa apa yg mummy talk bout him. thats why la aku tk nak bgitau dia pasal ini. hmm. tp dia ckp jgn nak rahsia dgn dia. so, aku bgitau je lah. then, benda jadi mcm ini.. dia terasa about mummy ckp dia tk pndai lah. dia mcm jahat lah. haihh. sabar je lah aku. apa boleh buat? dh dia terasa. and nasib lah aku dpt bf yg kuat terasa ni. hmmm. hari ni sepatutnya hari yg bahagia buat aku but lain pulak jadinya. sbr je la. now aku nak biar je dia. malas lah nak pujuk ke apa ke. sbb apa2 mesti dia nak merajuk and lastly aku kena pujukk. haihhh. okayy, thats all for today i guess. byee :)

Stupid things i ever did! :(

hello dear blogger! hari ni aku nak tulis dalam bahasa melayu lah :) hmm. today? hati aku sakit gila ya allah, serious. tk pernah aku rasa mcm ni. BF aku sendiri sakit hati dgn aku cuma sebab aku tweet about abang angkat aku sendiri. tapi ini salah aku jugak kan? dah tau dia jealous dgn abang angkt aku lagi nak tulis pasal abg. hmmm. aku terseksa mcm ni ya allah. sampai bila lah dia nak marah2 aku lagi ni? dah mintak maaf dh. tp dia abaikan aku. :( so, what should i do right now? sabar je lahh. dia kuat jealous. and i think i should understand that from earlier. hmm and i promise, takkan cakap pasal abang lagi. please, maafkan saya? saya sayang awak sangat2 tau takk. maafkan saya please? dah lah esok result SPM keluar. haihhh. sabar je lah. i think smpai sini saja kot. will tulis again later on. :)

15/3/2012 :D

hye there! long time didn't write here right? know wht so special bout that date? that day was the i couple for the first time. and that guy that i love named Adam Qusyairi B Faudzi. and yess, i admit it i love him so fucking damn much! and i am lucky too actually bcuz i have him in my life. :) he loves me so much! and and this is first time i've been in a relationship, it means he is my first love. :) and yeah! i am happy with him. :D

Happy moment and unbelieveable!

hey dear blogger, i am kinda miss ya. hihi :D i feel damn happy actually. thats why i am willing to spend my time writing at this blog. :D act, i did told him about my true feel. and alhamdulillah, he has the same feel as me. :) and the truth is i can't believe this at all but this is the reality. wake up, ika!! haha


today, 3/3/2012 at 2 a.m. - suddenly he start conversation with me. and act that time i feel so much hurt. aww. like kena tikam. haha :/ know why? it is bcuz ada lah this one guy kan. okay, i thought that he likes me. bcuz that that he tak habis2 puji me and always tweet with me. and i feel like i like him. haha. omgod, i love 2 people at the same time. k, i feel really bad! ><' satu saya suka bf org. and satu lagi he's single. ok, tamakkan aku? -.- haha. thn, lastly i tell him the truth. i tell him about my feel and aku rasa lega gila. thnk you allah. :) and rupanya, dia jga suka saya. k, syok sndiri. hahah


and you know wht, this is first time the person that i love have the same feel as me. ya allah, bahagia gila. aku tk pernah rasa happy smpai mcm ni. but i don't know why suddenly i feel guilty towards his gf. grr. rasa mcm rampas boyfiee org je. saya jahat saya tauu. kbai -.-'' nevermind. i feel happy if he is happy. so, if dia jodoh aku, aku terima. if dia bukan jodoh aku, aku redha dan ikhlas. sekian. :)

sad + mad = complicated :/

Hey dear blogger! i miss writing here so much! the purpose im writing here is because i feel hurt much. and i feel sad. the person that i love. yess, he's having a serious disease. :( how could him kept this as secret from me? i guess im not important to know all bout him yea. but nevermind. as long as i already knew the truth story, it is more than enough. :) but, i feel guilty towards his brother. know why? i feel guilty bcuz i can't tell him the truth. :/ sorry dik, i can't tell you as i promise to someone not to tell you about this. i feel useless bcuz i can't do anything. hmm. what should i do right now? i don't know what should i do now. i guess what can i do now is just pray and pray to Allah. and have to be more patience. yeah. i have too. 

And yesterday, i don't know why i feel like this. He on his fb. but he didn't chat with me. and didn't start the conversation first. i wonder why he's like that yesterday. because usually, he will start first and not me. oh, i feel so much hurt like seriously. i guess, this tells me that i can't forget him yet yea. thats why i feel like thiss. :| i don't know who's fault here. my intention is to start first, but unfortunately, i gotta work to did after that. so yeah. and after finish my work, i thought that he still on. but it was wrong. he's off. and yeah. Ahh. i don't care bout him anymore. i feel tired okay. and now i feel like he doesn't love me anymore. what a sad life. :( thats it! i don't wanna know bout him anymore. we'll see wht will happen. if he miss me, he will text me or chat with me. and if not, i have to accept that he don't love me anymore.

thanks for reading :) will update my next story later.

sad news :(

 hey dear blogger! i miss writing here. :) and im now to write something bout my abangg.
Act, i feel a bit sad knowing from his lil bro that he maybe suffering from a heart disease. He found a letter from a hospital saying that he will be operate soon. but abang doesn't fill the form. hmm. i hope that all this is not true. i hope he is okay and not having any serious disease. please ya allah, i really really love him. i don't know what will happen if he's gone. because he is my strength. and he is the one and only foster brother that i have. if he's gone, how am i going to survive? i love him like i love my own family. serious. :)) i think wht can i do now is just pray and prayy to god. hoping that he will be finee. ya allah, please jauhkan dia dari segala penyakit. kerana aku sangat sayang dia. 


i've asked him already whether is he having any disease or not but he seems like don't wanna answer. that make me feel even worried. and lastly, he just said sorry to me. and when i asked sorry for what? he just said ntg. just sorry. hmm. i hope he's okayy. aku akan terus berdoa utk dia. ya allah, kuatkan aku untuk hadapi semua ni ya allah. Amin. 

Hello February! :)

how time flies fast! its already February! and it is the month of love. the starting of this month, hmm its not that good :( last night, abg text me and wrote that he feel useless now. he said all people that he love doesn't love him, he is useless and etc. and i was like. ok, suddenly cry. and yeah, i did cried last night. i cried bcuz i can't see him like this,. he is the only brother that i have. i don't have other brother. i think he need to be alone. and i don't want to disturb him. when i asked him why is he behaving like this. he won't tell me. how can i help him? haihh. abang2, if you are like this, i feel so damn weak. bcause you make me feel strong. what can i do now is just pray to god that he will be better. and he will always love me. lastly, I LOVE YOU, Abang :)

240112 :)

Hello people! :)) so, whts so special bout that date? Act, 24 of Jan is the happiest day in my life. that is i went out date with my lovely foster sister, Syamsinar :) we went to IOI. we just walking around the IOI. we did nothing much. but so much fun okay! just chit chatting no matter where we are :D The best of the best part is when we talk about abg. and suddenly abg text me. wahaha. i bet that he knew that i am talking about him that time. haha. we were in the IOI from 12.05 untill 5.30! thats was so long right? hehehe :3


As i reached home, i received call form Abang! before he call me, we've been texting first. and i never thought that he will call me. i thought that he accidently press the call button. but my thought were all wrong! he did wanted to call me. and yeah. we were on the phone. the funny moment when i heard his voice. it is totally like frog's voice. haha. but that is not his true voice. act, he is having sore throat. haha. pity himm! :pp


so yeah. i think thats all for todayy. will update later. thanks for reading people! i love you all :*

Two Sweet Foster Brothers! :D

hello dear blogger! :) so i am here to write something bout my current life. yeahh not too fun. but still my life is in happyy condition. ;D Act, i've already have a lovely foster brother and a new lil foster brother. i tell you wht. they were awesome! glad to know them. lets talk bout Abang! yeah. abang. he is damn perfect guy. he is cool, kinda good looking and etc. :) He is caring too. andd too talkative. he's great and he is yeah like i said just now. PERFECT! He is now working. damn busy until i can't even text him when i feel bored. have to wait text form him then we can text each other. and yeah, he is my abangg! Thanks for the careness, abang, i love you so much! xoxo :*




lets talk about my new lil foster brother. act, i miss him damn much. for so long we didn't text each other. it is because he is damn busy. but i understood that he will sitting for a big examination for this year. so, i don't have the right to disturb him right? but i can fall sick if he still doesn't text me. i hope that he will topup and text me soon. will wait for him. :)


At last, i feel so much thankfull bcuz they make me happy. :D thanks once again. will not forget them until the last of my breath :) so, bye people! ;D

LIFELESS -____-

well, hello people! long time no see right? the reason i write is i feel boring much. grr. Naah. back to the topic.
and yeah i feel so lifeless right now. :/ know why? it is bcuz i miss someone. and yeah i can't tell you here right? Act, lately i've not been receive message from the person that i love much. and i feel freaking sad. like seriouslyy. haihh. We've been texting before this but now he's busy. but nevermind. i knw he's busy. i don't want to disturb himm. and now i feel wanna cry. someone. can you'll try to make me chill? if you can. -.-

HAHAHA. btw, talk bout him. hmm. he's nice and kind too. that make me fall in love with him. but i can't be in relationship with him. know why? bcuz he has somebody else. yeahh. its ok. just be friend with him is more than enough i guess. he's my dream guy y'knw. i hope for someone like him for me. insyaAllah ;)
i really hope that i can forget him. because i don't deserve him. so yeah. i am ok i guess. will write again later. byeee :)