Stupid things i ever did! :(

hello dear blogger! hari ni aku nak tulis dalam bahasa melayu lah :) hmm. today? hati aku sakit gila ya allah, serious. tk pernah aku rasa mcm ni. BF aku sendiri sakit hati dgn aku cuma sebab aku tweet about abang angkat aku sendiri. tapi ini salah aku jugak kan? dah tau dia jealous dgn abang angkt aku lagi nak tulis pasal abg. hmmm. aku terseksa mcm ni ya allah. sampai bila lah dia nak marah2 aku lagi ni? dah mintak maaf dh. tp dia abaikan aku. :( so, what should i do right now? sabar je lahh. dia kuat jealous. and i think i should understand that from earlier. hmm and i promise, takkan cakap pasal abang lagi. please, maafkan saya? saya sayang awak sangat2 tau takk. maafkan saya please? dah lah esok result SPM keluar. haihhh. sabar je lah. i think smpai sini saja kot. will tulis again later on. :)

15/3/2012 :D

hye there! long time didn't write here right? know wht so special bout that date? that day was the i couple for the first time. and that guy that i love named Adam Qusyairi B Faudzi. and yess, i admit it i love him so fucking damn much! and i am lucky too actually bcuz i have him in my life. :) he loves me so much! and and this is first time i've been in a relationship, it means he is my first love. :) and yeah! i am happy with him. :D

Happy moment and unbelieveable!

hey dear blogger, i am kinda miss ya. hihi :D i feel damn happy actually. thats why i am willing to spend my time writing at this blog. :D act, i did told him about my true feel. and alhamdulillah, he has the same feel as me. :) and the truth is i can't believe this at all but this is the reality. wake up, ika!! haha


today, 3/3/2012 at 2 a.m. - suddenly he start conversation with me. and act that time i feel so much hurt. aww. like kena tikam. haha :/ know why? it is bcuz ada lah this one guy kan. okay, i thought that he likes me. bcuz that that he tak habis2 puji me and always tweet with me. and i feel like i like him. haha. omgod, i love 2 people at the same time. k, i feel really bad! ><' satu saya suka bf org. and satu lagi he's single. ok, tamakkan aku? -.- haha. thn, lastly i tell him the truth. i tell him about my feel and aku rasa lega gila. thnk you allah. :) and rupanya, dia jga suka saya. k, syok sndiri. hahah


and you know wht, this is first time the person that i love have the same feel as me. ya allah, bahagia gila. aku tk pernah rasa happy smpai mcm ni. but i don't know why suddenly i feel guilty towards his gf. grr. rasa mcm rampas boyfiee org je. saya jahat saya tauu. kbai -.-'' nevermind. i feel happy if he is happy. so, if dia jodoh aku, aku terima. if dia bukan jodoh aku, aku redha dan ikhlas. sekian. :)

sad + mad = complicated :/

Hey dear blogger! i miss writing here so much! the purpose im writing here is because i feel hurt much. and i feel sad. the person that i love. yess, he's having a serious disease. :( how could him kept this as secret from me? i guess im not important to know all bout him yea. but nevermind. as long as i already knew the truth story, it is more than enough. :) but, i feel guilty towards his brother. know why? i feel guilty bcuz i can't tell him the truth. :/ sorry dik, i can't tell you as i promise to someone not to tell you about this. i feel useless bcuz i can't do anything. hmm. what should i do right now? i don't know what should i do now. i guess what can i do now is just pray and pray to Allah. and have to be more patience. yeah. i have too. 

And yesterday, i don't know why i feel like this. He on his fb. but he didn't chat with me. and didn't start the conversation first. i wonder why he's like that yesterday. because usually, he will start first and not me. oh, i feel so much hurt like seriously. i guess, this tells me that i can't forget him yet yea. thats why i feel like thiss. :| i don't know who's fault here. my intention is to start first, but unfortunately, i gotta work to did after that. so yeah. and after finish my work, i thought that he still on. but it was wrong. he's off. and yeah. Ahh. i don't care bout him anymore. i feel tired okay. and now i feel like he doesn't love me anymore. what a sad life. :( thats it! i don't wanna know bout him anymore. we'll see wht will happen. if he miss me, he will text me or chat with me. and if not, i have to accept that he don't love me anymore.

thanks for reading :) will update my next story later.

sad news :(

 hey dear blogger! i miss writing here. :) and im now to write something bout my abangg.
Act, i feel a bit sad knowing from his lil bro that he maybe suffering from a heart disease. He found a letter from a hospital saying that he will be operate soon. but abang doesn't fill the form. hmm. i hope that all this is not true. i hope he is okay and not having any serious disease. please ya allah, i really really love him. i don't know what will happen if he's gone. because he is my strength. and he is the one and only foster brother that i have. if he's gone, how am i going to survive? i love him like i love my own family. serious. :)) i think wht can i do now is just pray and prayy to god. hoping that he will be finee. ya allah, please jauhkan dia dari segala penyakit. kerana aku sangat sayang dia. 


i've asked him already whether is he having any disease or not but he seems like don't wanna answer. that make me feel even worried. and lastly, he just said sorry to me. and when i asked sorry for what? he just said ntg. just sorry. hmm. i hope he's okayy. aku akan terus berdoa utk dia. ya allah, kuatkan aku untuk hadapi semua ni ya allah. Amin. 

Hello February! :)

how time flies fast! its already February! and it is the month of love. the starting of this month, hmm its not that good :( last night, abg text me and wrote that he feel useless now. he said all people that he love doesn't love him, he is useless and etc. and i was like. ok, suddenly cry. and yeah, i did cried last night. i cried bcuz i can't see him like this,. he is the only brother that i have. i don't have other brother. i think he need to be alone. and i don't want to disturb him. when i asked him why is he behaving like this. he won't tell me. how can i help him? haihh. abang2, if you are like this, i feel so damn weak. bcause you make me feel strong. what can i do now is just pray to god that he will be better. and he will always love me. lastly, I LOVE YOU, Abang :)

240112 :)

Hello people! :)) so, whts so special bout that date? Act, 24 of Jan is the happiest day in my life. that is i went out date with my lovely foster sister, Syamsinar :) we went to IOI. we just walking around the IOI. we did nothing much. but so much fun okay! just chit chatting no matter where we are :D The best of the best part is when we talk about abg. and suddenly abg text me. wahaha. i bet that he knew that i am talking about him that time. haha. we were in the IOI from 12.05 untill 5.30! thats was so long right? hehehe :3


As i reached home, i received call form Abang! before he call me, we've been texting first. and i never thought that he will call me. i thought that he accidently press the call button. but my thought were all wrong! he did wanted to call me. and yeah. we were on the phone. the funny moment when i heard his voice. it is totally like frog's voice. haha. but that is not his true voice. act, he is having sore throat. haha. pity himm! :pp


so yeah. i think thats all for todayy. will update later. thanks for reading people! i love you all :*