sad + mad = complicated :/

Hey dear blogger! i miss writing here so much! the purpose im writing here is because i feel hurt much. and i feel sad. the person that i love. yess, he's having a serious disease. :( how could him kept this as secret from me? i guess im not important to know all bout him yea. but nevermind. as long as i already knew the truth story, it is more than enough. :) but, i feel guilty towards his brother. know why? i feel guilty bcuz i can't tell him the truth. :/ sorry dik, i can't tell you as i promise to someone not to tell you about this. i feel useless bcuz i can't do anything. hmm. what should i do right now? i don't know what should i do now. i guess what can i do now is just pray and pray to Allah. and have to be more patience. yeah. i have too. 

And yesterday, i don't know why i feel like this. He on his fb. but he didn't chat with me. and didn't start the conversation first. i wonder why he's like that yesterday. because usually, he will start first and not me. oh, i feel so much hurt like seriously. i guess, this tells me that i can't forget him yet yea. thats why i feel like thiss. :| i don't know who's fault here. my intention is to start first, but unfortunately, i gotta work to did after that. so yeah. and after finish my work, i thought that he still on. but it was wrong. he's off. and yeah. Ahh. i don't care bout him anymore. i feel tired okay. and now i feel like he doesn't love me anymore. what a sad life. :( thats it! i don't wanna know bout him anymore. we'll see wht will happen. if he miss me, he will text me or chat with me. and if not, i have to accept that he don't love me anymore.

thanks for reading :) will update my next story later.