Hey dear blogger! i miss writing here so much! the purpose im writing here is because i feel hurt much. and i feel sad. the person that i love. yess, he's having a serious disease. :( how could him kept this as secret from me? i guess im not important to know all bout him yea. but nevermind. as long as i already knew the truth story, it is more than enough. :) but, i feel guilty towards his brother. know why? i feel guilty bcuz i can't tell him the truth. :/ sorry dik, i can't tell you as i promise to someone not to tell you about this. i feel useless bcuz i can't do anything. hmm. what should i do right now? i don't know what should i do now. i guess what can i do now is just pray and pray to Allah. and have to be more patience. yeah. i have too.
Monday, February 27, 2012
sad + mad = complicated :/
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
sad news :(
hey dear blogger! i miss writing here. :) and im now to write something bout my abangg.
Act, i feel a bit sad knowing from his lil bro that he maybe suffering from a heart disease. He found a letter from a hospital saying that he will be operate soon. but abang doesn't fill the form. hmm. i hope that all this is not true. i hope he is okay and not having any serious disease. please ya allah, i really really love him. i don't know what will happen if he's gone. because he is my strength. and he is the one and only foster brother that i have. if he's gone, how am i going to survive? i love him like i love my own family. serious. :)) i think wht can i do now is just pray and prayy to god. hoping that he will be finee. ya allah, please jauhkan dia dari segala penyakit. kerana aku sangat sayang dia.
i've asked him already whether is he having any disease or not but he seems like don't wanna answer. that make me feel even worried. and lastly, he just said sorry to me. and when i asked sorry for what? he just said ntg. just sorry. hmm. i hope he's okayy. aku akan terus berdoa utk dia. ya allah, kuatkan aku untuk hadapi semua ni ya allah. Amin.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Hello February! :)
how time flies fast! its already February! and it is the month of love. the starting of this month, hmm its not that good :( last night, abg text me and wrote that he feel useless now. he said all people that he love doesn't love him, he is useless and etc. and i was like. ok, suddenly cry. and yeah, i did cried last night. i cried bcuz i can't see him like this,. he is the only brother that i have. i don't have other brother. i think he need to be alone. and i don't want to disturb him. when i asked him why is he behaving like this. he won't tell me. how can i help him? haihh. abang2, if you are like this, i feel so damn weak. bcause you make me feel strong. what can i do now is just pray to god that he will be better. and he will always love me. lastly, I LOVE YOU, Abang :)
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
240112 :)
Hello people! :)) so, whts so special bout that date? Act, 24 of Jan is the happiest day in my life. that is i went out date with my lovely foster sister, Syamsinar :) we went to IOI. we just walking around the IOI. we did nothing much. but so much fun okay! just chit chatting no matter where we are :D The best of the best part is when we talk about abg. and suddenly abg text me. wahaha. i bet that he knew that i am talking about him that time. haha. we were in the IOI from 12.05 untill 5.30! thats was so long right? hehehe :3
As i reached home, i received call form Abang! before he call me, we've been texting first. and i never thought that he will call me. i thought that he accidently press the call button. but my thought were all wrong! he did wanted to call me. and yeah. we were on the phone. the funny moment when i heard his voice. it is totally like frog's voice. haha. but that is not his true voice. act, he is having sore throat. haha. pity himm! :pp
so yeah. i think thats all for todayy. will update later. thanks for reading people! i love you all :*
Friday, January 20, 2012
Two Sweet Foster Brothers! :D
hello dear blogger! :) so i am here to write something bout my current life. yeahh not too fun. but still my life is in happyy condition. ;D Act, i've already have a lovely foster brother and a new lil foster brother. i tell you wht. they were awesome! glad to know them. lets talk bout Abang! yeah. abang. he is damn perfect guy. he is cool, kinda good looking and etc. :) He is caring too. andd too talkative. he's great and he is yeah like i said just now. PERFECT! He is now working. damn busy until i can't even text him when i feel bored. have to wait text form him then we can text each other. and yeah, he is my abangg! Thanks for the careness, abang, i love you so much! xoxo :*
lets talk about my new lil foster brother. act, i miss him damn much. for so long we didn't text each other. it is because he is damn busy. but i understood that he will sitting for a big examination for this year. so, i don't have the right to disturb him right? but i can fall sick if he still doesn't text me. i hope that he will topup and text me soon. will wait for him. :)
At last, i feel so much thankfull bcuz they make me happy. :D thanks once again. will not forget them until the last of my breath :) so, bye people! ;D
Saturday, January 14, 2012
LIFELESS -____-
well, hello people! long time no see right? the reason i write is i feel boring much. grr. Naah. back to the topic.
and yeah i feel so lifeless right now. :/ know why? it is bcuz i miss someone. and yeah i can't tell you here right? Act, lately i've not been receive message from the person that i love much. and i feel freaking sad. like seriouslyy. haihh. We've been texting before this but now he's busy. but nevermind. i knw he's busy. i don't want to disturb himm. and now i feel wanna cry. someone. can you'll try to make me chill? if you can. -.-
HAHAHA. btw, talk bout him. hmm. he's nice and kind too. that make me fall in love with him. but i can't be in relationship with him. know why? bcuz he has somebody else. yeahh. its ok. just be friend with him is more than enough i guess. he's my dream guy y'knw. i hope for someone like him for me. insyaAllah ;)
i really hope that i can forget him. because i don't deserve him. so yeah. i am ok i guess. will write again later. byeee :)
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Happiest Moment Ever! :DD
Last night was 14 December 2011! you know what is so special about this date? haha. jeng jeng jeng. :)
Act, i was so damn happyy untill now. it is because haha. you know who is Nazim Othman? yeah, if you knw who is he good. but if you don't know, make know of it. hahah :P
The story begins like this ...
yesterday, i tweet with my lovely foster sister, Nurul Syamsinar Bt Syawal. :) haha. i said to her that i love Aaron Aziz and Nazim Othmann. and a few minutes later, he replied my tweet. what surprise me was he replied the tweet that i don't even mention him. you guys know wht did he replied? haha. wait. see
SEE thatt? hehe. he replied love you too. K, im melting like ice right now.
seriously, i feel damn excited. because i've been admire him long time ago. :) K, angau jap. haha. Abg Nazim i really2 dh angau ni. haha.Angau kat Nazim Othman lupa Aaron Aziz, Adi Putra and all that. haha.
btw, who ever didn't know who Nazim is. here is some photos of him. :)
ok, stop here. have fun guys and girls! heheh. i love you all. last but not least, I LOVE YOU NAZIM OTHMAN! :DD
