10.11.12

hai there peeps! :) 10.11.12 was a nice date right? but not for me i guess. tarikh cantik tu adalah tarikh terakhir aku berada di Kolej Matrikulasi Perlis (KMP) last day aku kt kmp. sedih nak tinggalkan kawan2 sebenarnya tapi aku terpaksa. aku dapat tawaran ke UiTM course Pengurusan Maklumat. course yang aku nak sangat2. bukan tu je. aku dh tk boleh nak belajar lagi kt kmp tu. dkt kmp aku rasa aku sangat lifeless. i really need a new environment. ini jalan yang aku pilih. aku mmg sayang roomates aku. aku sayang korang. serious. :') classmates aku. pun aku sayang wehh. roomate aku yang paling aku rapat and aku sayang is Nur Farahin Allia bt Abd Nasir. Liaaa, kau sangat comel! even kau jenis garang tapi aku tetap sayang kau wehh. kau sweet sangat. kau org ke-2 yg aku kenal kt kmp. aku mesti rindu kau. me love youu :*  to zatie, kau banyak tlg aku weh. even kau suka marah2 aku tapi aku tauu kau just main2 jee. aku tau tuu. ihiks. aku pun sayang kau jugak. tk lupa jugak dkt wanie, ain.. korang pun aku sayang :) aku akan ingat semua kenangan kt dlm bilik 206. kenangan tu akan aku simpan kt dlm hati.

to classmate aku pulakk. org yg paling aku rapat is Zahira Syazwani bt Shamsudin :) zeraaa, kau org yg paling aku rpt dlm kelas. ketawa menangis semua dgn kau. semua masalah aku, aku cerita dgn kau je kot. kau je yg faham aku. yang lain tak. hurmm even kau suka buli aku. perli2 aku. i don't really mind bout it. :) mesti aku rindu nak kena buli dgn kau oh. ihiksss :D to classmate aku yg lainn. yeahh even x rpt sgt, but aku still sayang korang :') 

jom tengok gambar2 aku dgn roomates aku :D 

                                           so from the left is me, aen, allia and wanie :)

                                                          me and ain abu kassim :D

                                                                    wehuuuuu~ :D

now with my classmates :D 

                                                             me, anis and zahira :)

                                                     me, zahira, faqhera and zata :D

koranggg, ingat tau aku sayang sangat kt korang. tk kisah lah roomate aku or classmate aku. aku sayangggg korangg. heee byoieee :D 

and tau tak kenapa aku pilih utk masuk UiTM? sebab utama aku masuk Uitm is aku rasa aku mmg dh tk boleh nak bawak matrik tuu. mmg dh tk boleh. PSPM pun aku buat sangat teruk. aku buat main2. and the second reason is.. if aku terus duduk situ, aku akan terbayang benda yg dh lepas yg tk sepatutnya aku kenang. that is, aku asyik teringat ex aku. and bila teringat, mesti nak menangis, haihh. ya allah, kuatkan hati hambamu ni ya allah. maybe aku masuk Uitm takkan igt dh benda2 yg dh lepas yg menyakitkan tuu. yeah i needa a new environment. and aku spt U dkt sungai petani. i hope that my life is better kt sana that kt matrik. insyaAllah. :)
thats all from me. thnk you :D

heartache :')

haii dear blogger. ;) for so long time i didn't write here. me miss you so much! :) lets just write something about my life. my life. isn't that happy. it full of sadness as i become a single lady. ihiks. i am actually had been clash with 'him'. it is already 1 month and 28 days we make our own way :') we had been together for 6 months. we start couple on 15.03.2012 and we clash on 15.09.2012. the date of 15th, at the first was a nice date for me but i hate that date as we are already clash.

On the month of November,
banyak kenangan yang saya nak tulis. let me write in bahasa melayu. hikhikhik :) kalau masuk 15hb ni, maksudnya 2 bulan dah kita putus. saya ingat semua tu awak, tarikh masa kita first couple. kita putus. i do remember all that. kenangan manis, pahit semua saya simpan dlm hati saya. even sekarang awak dh ada org lain, saya faham. mungkin saya bukan yg terbaik utk awak. mungkin awak lebih bahagia tanpa saya. if you're happy without me, then i'll let you go. even that hurt me a lot. i've no choice. i had too. tapi cepatnya awak dpt pengganti? saya smpai sekarang still x dapat lupakan awak. sayang terhadap awak tu still ada lagi. awak 'first love' saya kan? bukan senang saya nak lupa mcm tu jee. tkpe la awak saya redha dan ikhlas kalau mmg awak bukan untuk saya :')

lately nii, awak selalu muncul dalam ingatan saya. saya tak pernah salahkan awak knp semua jadi mcm ni. mungkin mmg salah saya. atau mungkin kita mmg tak ada jodoh. cuma saya terasa hati dgn apa yang awak dah buat kat saya. saya terasa bila awak kasar dgn saya. saya terasa sangat2 awak. sampai sekarang rasa sakit tu still ada lagi. saya try benci awak but i can't. i can't hate you even i force myself too. tidak apa2 lahh. semua kenangan pahit manis kita selama 6 bulan akn saya kenang sampai bila2 awak. saya takkan lupa semua tu :') 
ada satu hari tu saya bukak profile twitter awak, saya terkejut tgk awak dah unfollow saya kt twitter. saya sedih sgt awak time tu.. tapi saya faham. takkan saya nak halang awak utk unfollow saya? padahal saya dh lama dh unfollow awak. saya sedihh.. saya menangis. kt bbm pun awak dh delete saya. and lastly saya dpt tahu yang awak dah ada org lain. ya allah, hanya allah sahaja yang tahu betapa sakitnya hati saya nii. sangat2 sakittt. its okay. kalau itu yg boleh buat awak bahagia, saya pun turut bahagia. saya doakan awak happy dgn gf bru awak. 

susah utk aku cari penggantimu. aku susah dah nak percaya lelaki. sangat susah. susah utk terima lelaki dlm hidup aku. it takes time for me to get a guy trust. it takes time. my heart is still bleeding. 

                          

thats alll from. wait for anothe post from me. hihihi :D

26042012

Hey there dear blogger! :) saya rinduu kamuu sangatt2! okay, whats with 26 April eh? hmm, itu tarikh b'day saya :D yeah, this year was so damn special la. serious. even tak ada hadiah. no celebrate with friends but saya dpt banyak wish from people. itu pun sudah cukup :D dekat facebook, dkt twitter. bbm. whatsapp and message! ya allah, thanks for all that :) i was so damn happy la that day. seriously. :D but text yang paling saya sukaa is text from my first loove. but now dh jadi my ex. and kita mmg dh tk ada apa2. he gave me a damn long wish. and i was so damn happy lahh. okayy, thank you ye dear AQF :D thanks sbb buat karangan panjang lebar utk wish saya. hahaha xD and wish dari abg saya pun amat bermakna utk saya. thanks abang! hehe. andd time b'day saya tu, i otp dgn AQF sgt lama oh. haha. dari pukul 12.40a.m. untill 5a.m. lebih. ya allah, how happy i am that time. only allah know. haha. dapt free call kan? call saje laa. wakakaka xD and before habis that free call pun i call him. but we end up bergaduh. but nvm la. its okay. saya terima dgn ikhlas semua ini :) and i think itu sajee kot. will write again later :D

tired!

hey blogger! today i write again here. yeahh. also about my bf. aku tk tau kenapa. kita asal gaduh sajaa. dh baik gaduh, dh baik gaduh. hari tu gaduh pasal abang. and now sbb dia terasa apa yg mummy talk bout him. thats why la aku tk nak bgitau dia pasal ini. hmm. tp dia ckp jgn nak rahsia dgn dia. so, aku bgitau je lah. then, benda jadi mcm ini.. dia terasa about mummy ckp dia tk pndai lah. dia mcm jahat lah. haihh. sabar je lah aku. apa boleh buat? dh dia terasa. and nasib lah aku dpt bf yg kuat terasa ni. hmmm. hari ni sepatutnya hari yg bahagia buat aku but lain pulak jadinya. sbr je la. now aku nak biar je dia. malas lah nak pujuk ke apa ke. sbb apa2 mesti dia nak merajuk and lastly aku kena pujukk. haihhh. okayy, thats all for today i guess. byee :)

Stupid things i ever did! :(

hello dear blogger! hari ni aku nak tulis dalam bahasa melayu lah :) hmm. today? hati aku sakit gila ya allah, serious. tk pernah aku rasa mcm ni. BF aku sendiri sakit hati dgn aku cuma sebab aku tweet about abang angkat aku sendiri. tapi ini salah aku jugak kan? dah tau dia jealous dgn abang angkt aku lagi nak tulis pasal abg. hmmm. aku terseksa mcm ni ya allah. sampai bila lah dia nak marah2 aku lagi ni? dah mintak maaf dh. tp dia abaikan aku. :( so, what should i do right now? sabar je lahh. dia kuat jealous. and i think i should understand that from earlier. hmm and i promise, takkan cakap pasal abang lagi. please, maafkan saya? saya sayang awak sangat2 tau takk. maafkan saya please? dah lah esok result SPM keluar. haihhh. sabar je lah. i think smpai sini saja kot. will tulis again later on. :)

15/3/2012 :D

hye there! long time didn't write here right? know wht so special bout that date? that day was the i couple for the first time. and that guy that i love named Adam Qusyairi B Faudzi. and yess, i admit it i love him so fucking damn much! and i am lucky too actually bcuz i have him in my life. :) he loves me so much! and and this is first time i've been in a relationship, it means he is my first love. :) and yeah! i am happy with him. :D

Happy moment and unbelieveable!

hey dear blogger, i am kinda miss ya. hihi :D i feel damn happy actually. thats why i am willing to spend my time writing at this blog. :D act, i did told him about my true feel. and alhamdulillah, he has the same feel as me. :) and the truth is i can't believe this at all but this is the reality. wake up, ika!! haha


today, 3/3/2012 at 2 a.m. - suddenly he start conversation with me. and act that time i feel so much hurt. aww. like kena tikam. haha :/ know why? it is bcuz ada lah this one guy kan. okay, i thought that he likes me. bcuz that that he tak habis2 puji me and always tweet with me. and i feel like i like him. haha. omgod, i love 2 people at the same time. k, i feel really bad! ><' satu saya suka bf org. and satu lagi he's single. ok, tamakkan aku? -.- haha. thn, lastly i tell him the truth. i tell him about my feel and aku rasa lega gila. thnk you allah. :) and rupanya, dia jga suka saya. k, syok sndiri. hahah


and you know wht, this is first time the person that i love have the same feel as me. ya allah, bahagia gila. aku tk pernah rasa happy smpai mcm ni. but i don't know why suddenly i feel guilty towards his gf. grr. rasa mcm rampas boyfiee org je. saya jahat saya tauu. kbai -.-'' nevermind. i feel happy if he is happy. so, if dia jodoh aku, aku terima. if dia bukan jodoh aku, aku redha dan ikhlas. sekian. :)